Waiting on God

Waiting on God is the hardest part of His plan.

There’s stress and worry and excitement for the things to come for us. God always tells of His promises, and the plans He has for us.

While we go through each day, even with knowing He is with us, there can be many, MANY, times where we are impatient. I know for me, I am the most impatient person that I know. Whether it’s because I’m looking forward to something or if I’m dwelling on the future, I am always rushing, always go, go, going. And that, is one of my biggest downfalls.

Knowing of God’s big plans to prosper us, and to give us more than we could ever even imagine, sparks the biggest (most impatient) joy inside of my heart. Everything that has happened in your life, has been according to His plan. Everything that is going to happen in five, ten, years, or even fifteen minutes from now, will go according to His glorious plan.

The pain, hurt, sorrow, heartbreak – all according to His plan. Yes, even the worst hurt you have faced.

Everything that happens, is to shape you into the person He has set for you to be and to better prepare you for your future.

Yesterday is gone, along with everything that happened. So, let it go. Focus on the now! Not even just ten minutes ago. That time has passed and can never be changed. Don’t dwell on it, instead be in the now.

Tomorrow is farther away than you truly think, and it comes with its own worry.

“Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.” Matthew 6:34 KJV

God wants you to trust in Him, to trust His plans and His time, because nothing can ever be better than what God has planned for our lives.

That dream house you planned and designed when you were in middle school – God has it planned.

That dream of having a loving husband that comes home to you each day – it’s planned.

That desire to be a mom – it’s planned.

Everything you ask for in prayer, is yours if you believe.

“Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.” Mark 11:24 KJV

That’s not necessarily meaning that if you like someone else’s spouse, that if you pray then they will be yours, no. The things you receive will be BETTER than anything you could ever imagine.

God’s time, God’s time, God’s time.

I find myself repeating that so much everyday now, praying and begging Him to please just calm my soul and my head from the rush and dwelling of what’s to come.

If God shows you visions, or comes to you in dreams, etc. and He has shown you things that He has planned for you, it can be INCREDIBLY hard to not try to put a rush on things and to take your life in your own hands. (I am speaking all of this to myself daily too.)

If we rush and try to write our life out ourselves, we are only setting ourselves up for hurt and failure, believe me when I say that.

God’s time is the best time.

If you are frustrated with your life, and feel anger or are overwhelmed, nothing is going right and you have no much hurt and confusion and conflicts in your head and heart.

Stop.

Stop and give your life back over to Him.

It’s nerve wrecking and overwhelming because you have took the pen from him and are trying to write out everything that you want to happen, instead of trusting in Him and His plans for you.

We can’t rush Him.

Instead of dwelling on the future and trying to plan everything out yourself, fall to your knees with your hands bound in front of you and bow your head. If you are impatient, pray for Him to calm you and to help you keep your trust in Him.

Praise Him each and every day, all day, while you are waiting.

Pray to become the person God wants you to be and the person that you, yourself, know you can become in Christ.

Strengthen your relationship with God, strengthen your faith.

Don’t rush, don’t take control. Give it all to Him. Give Him the pen and the trust and faith to direct and guide you to the life He has planned for you. The Lord is not slow in keeping His promises.

Nahum 1:7 KJV

“The Lord is good, a strong hold in the day of trouble; and he knoweth them that trust in him.”

Psalm 40:4 KJV

“Blessed is that man that maketh the Lord his trust, and respecteth not the proud, nor such as turn aside to lies.”

Psalm 9:10 KJV

“And they that know thy name will put their trust in thee: for thou, Lord, hast not forsaken them that seek thee.”

Psalm 143:8 KJV

“Cause me to hear thy lovingkindness in the morning; for in thee I do trust: cause me to know the way wherein I should walk; for I lift my soul unto thee.”

2 Chronicles 20:20 KJV

“… Believe in the Lord your God, so shall ye be established; believe his prophets, so shall ye prosper.”

1 Thessalonians 5:18 KJV

“In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.”

Hebrews 10:36 KJV

“For ye have need of patience, that, after ye have done the will of God, ye might receive the promise.”

1 Peter 4:19 KJV

“Wherefore let them that suffer according to the will of God commit the keeping of their souls to him in well doing, as unto a faithful Creator.”

Philippians 2:13 KJV

“For it is God which worketh in you both to will and to do of his good pleasure.”

Romans 12:2 KJV

“And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.”

Psalm 27:14 KJV

“Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord.”

Psalm 40:1 KJV

“I waited patiently for the Lord; and he inclined unto me, and heard my cry.”

His Will

I don’t usually do this, but this morning I’m feeling very very compelled to do it. So, bare with me through this long post. I’m not sure who needs this, but I pray that it truly helps you through whatever it is that you are going through.

I guess I’ll start off by giving a little back story of the last year. Okay, around this time last year, I was completely broken, devastated, so far down in that hole of depression that I truly didn’t know if I would ever get out again. All because of a break-up. Crazy right? Looking back now, I can’t believe the way I acted during this situation at times. But, it wasn’t just a ‘normal’ break-up, no, this break-up tore a new family apart, leaving me a single mother to a one year old son, who sadly could feel everything that was happening. So, not only was I down in this hole, my son was also suffering and hurting and began to regress majorly. I didn’t think it was going to get better. Sure, I had been through a lot of tough times through my life, but I truly believed this would be what broke me. BOY.

It’s true when God said that LATER we will understand. Months went by, I was slowly, very slowly, getting to be okay, as so was my son. I started college, was planning for my future, picking out a career. But the pain and hurt and doubt was still there. Some days were better than the other, but I was alive. My son began to adapt to co-parenting a lot quicker than I did, and he started to progress again.

About half way through my first semester of college, I was already over it. I knew that the career and learning path I had chosen, was SO far out of my reach and would never be able to happen. (That was not truly my own doubt, that was GOD redirecting!) I knew I was going to finish out the semester regardless, even if I was once again back to searching for a career. Then one day, OUT OF NOWHERE, welding appeared in my mind. Mind you, I had never even heard of welding until about 2-3 years prior, and didn’t even know anything other than it was dangerous for your eyes. But with welding in mind now, it was stuck. I got my dad to teach me about it some at his dad’s house, I was (horribly) learning stick welding, but it was stuck to me and still is.

I signed up for welding classes for the next semester, and seen only guys in my class. That of course terrified me all together, but still I stuck, The building, the learning, the guys – NOTHING like I had imagined. I thankfully was put into a welding booth in the very back corner, out of sight out of mind. I thought.

I quickly made a friend with another girl that was thankfully in the class as well. Over the first probably month and a half, I stayed with her. My anxiety always tells me to find someone and to stay close to them. During this time, we were learning each other as every new friendship goes, and I quickly learned her love for God (this is the start of another spark rising in me). Mind you, my whole life I have believed in God and His words, but I strayed so much, so many times, coming and going in my faith with The Lord, still praying and feeling the guilt, but living in the world. My friend didn’t cuss, so out of respect, I stopped cussing around her, which led me to stop cussing all together, because she inspired me to be better that much.

Soon enough, I made another friend. Before that though, I had been saying off and on through my son’s life that I wanted him to grow up in a good, TRUE, church, just like I had. I wanted to be better for him, and give him the Godly life that he needed. I prayed on it many times but didn’t really move forward with it. Until one morning I prayed out to God to send us a church. A few hours later, the new friend I made, INVITED me to his CHURCH. (That’s God!!!!)

I was so excited all weekend to go see this church and see how it would make me feel. My mom told me where the church was and that it was a BIG church, which flamed up my anxiety, but I knew that I still wanted to go at least once to see if it was the one. I could feel the devil trying to work in me with fear and doubt, but I pushed forward. So, we went – and it indeed was huge. But what sparked inside of me that day at that church, was something I had never felt before. It was like God came to me and said ‘this is it, this is where you belong, come back to me’. And that I did.

Now, a month later, I am still going. I am still growing deeper and deeper in love with God, every single day. I am becoming the Godly woman that I always wished to be. The church is still too overwhelming for my son and his sensory, but I am praying and praying that God will help lead me to a way to help him be able to go with me.

When I first got saved, I was about twelve years old, and deep in God and my faith, but I have never been THIS deep in, and praying everyday to continue to grow and become stronger in a relationship with God. I have never had such a strong feeling of LOVE and COMFORT and STRENGTH and PEACE inside of me. Everyday I feel like I’m walking on the clouds. God has opened my eyes and my heart and shown me SO MUCH the past few weeks, things that were only for me and that will be brought to pass IN HIS TIME. And I am so excited for the future, and keeping my faith and trust so deeply in Him for His plans to prosper.

I fight my anxiety and depression every single day, but with the help, healing, and strength from God, and the advice from said friend earlier (who is such a Godly man!) it is all a mindset. Ironically enough, the preacher even preached about that. If you expect and rely on the negative thoughts, and the negative outcomes, then that is exactly what you will get, EVERY TIME.

Pretty sure I went off topic majorly in this, but I’m writing what I feel needs to be said for someone.

A year ago, I didn’t think I would make it. I didn’t want to get out of bed in the mornings, I was broke, and destroyed, and discouraged. BUT GOD. I didn’t understand then, BUT I DO NOW! He has healed me, mended me, taken me back in once again from when I strayed away. He is faithful and loving and forgiving – ALWAYS.

Every single day now, I feel my life fall more and more into place. Into the path that GOD has it set out to go into. The break-up was SUPPOSED to happen, to lead me to school, the doubt of the first career was SUPPOSED to happen and fail, so He could tell me welding. I was SUPPOSED to go into welding to meet these two Godly friends that have changed my life forever. I was SUPPOSED to get shown this church. I was SUPPOSED to go to this church for my heart and my life to be turned back over to God, and in a way that it never has been before. This was all SUPPOSED to happen, so He could show me, and guide me, and lead me into the Godly life I’m SUPPOSED to be in. All the pain of last year (literally around this time!!) was SUPPOSED to happen, to lead me all to this new life, to show me the future that He has planned, to strengthen my FAITH, to TRUST fully, to GIVE everything over to God, once and for all. If I look on my social media apps in the memories of things I posted last year, I smile bittersweet. Bittersweet for the pain that girl went through, that she didn’t know that a year later that she would be where she is today. IN THE ARMS OF GOD. IN HIS FAITH AND TRUST. IN HIS TRUE WILL AND WAY OF LIFE.

I write this to say, the pain you are feeling now, the sadness, the dark hole, the never ending doubt and discouragement and negativity. It’s all for the better good. You don’t understand it now, but I promise, promise, promise you, that you will. Keep your faith and trust in The Lord. It’s all for a reason, and it all will come to an end. An end that has God and his Holy, prefect, plan for your life. Don’t give up, don’t give in. You are so close. Turn it all over to God and leave it. He will heal you, He will guide and direct you. He loves you, He cares for you. His will, His plans are better than anything we could ever imagine. Put your trust and faith in Him, and give him the pen back. Let Him write out your life as He has it planned. Don’t rush it, don’t take over. Give it to HIM. Trust Him.

Everything you are going through right now is preparing you for the future you never knew you would have.

Wait. Wait. Wait, and trust Him.

Romans 8:18 KJV

For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.

John 13:7 KJV

Jesus answered and said unto him, What I do thou knowest not now; but thou shall know hereafter.

Proverbs 3:5 KJV

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

Ecclesiastes 3:11 KJV

He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end.

Romans 12:12 KJV

Rejoicing in hope; patient in tribulation; continuing instant in prayer.